Prepared for pain!

HAH! Oh boy, its amazing how God does stuff. He wakes me up with the thoughts on emotional pain last night and lo and behold... I get slammed! I didn't know He would prepare me for it first, He's amazing! Funny sense of humor... but amazing! haha

I'm determined in my heart to live over this pain though.  I've already lived too much of my life with pain, letting it guide me and influence me.  Maybe I'm too old and too stubborn to let it control me anymore, but I won't let this pain do to me what it has done in the past.  Even though I'm hurting, I won't allow it to separate me from the mission that God has placed me on this earth to perform.  And, who knows? Maybe this is God's way of freeing me up to do what He sent me to do.  Or freeing me to do what I've always wanted to do - write. 

Its funny, I was just extolling to my very talented and creative children about the passion to follow your dreams.  It seems that life has always gotten in the way of my passion for writing and my dream of being a published author.  Maybe this 'free time' will allow me the honor of pursuing it with some real vigor.  We shall see...  All I know is that I have a lot to do, a lot of work to get done for the Kingdom... and I can't lose sight of that for anything .. not even a little pain.  I'm blessed though, because I have so many friends and loved ones in my life who encourage me and lift me up.  I would be empty without you all, because you love me with God's love and it is a well of hope and strength when I'm feeling lost.  God uses us all to minister to one another even when we don't know it!

Trust God.  Trust that He knows every curve in the road and every bump along the way.  Trust that He's prepared you, knows  your ins and outs, knows your fears and sees every tear.  Trust Him when you don't know what else to do.

Be strong in the faith and trust God to lead you away from your pain.

~ Kim